It's been roughly 6 months without you and it literally doesn't get any easier. When I first came across Markel on Instagram I had no idea how much he would impact my life. I met him on Instagram in 2013, I believe. He would always like my pictures, make me his #WCW and randomly tell me that I was beautiful. Then I ran across his social media profiles and realized that he's a pretty cool damn dude and I can't remember if he slid in my dm's or if I slid in his. Not thinking anything of it, we connected and we became friends on the spot. The first time he called me we talked for like 3 hours straight on the phone.
From that very moment, I knew Markel would be special. I was happy we somehow, randomly found each other. He was God sent from the beginning. From our first phone conversation, Markel would randomly text me positive affirmations, share something motivating and text me "Good morning, Beautiful!" for months. Months grew fonder and I started to realize that this cool-ass dude that started liking my pictures on Instagram was a cool-ass dude in real life.
Fast forward to 2013-ish we started talking about our visions and aspirations. He always had something exciting that he was working on and was constantly either re-inventing himself or creating a master plan. I knew it was my job as his friend to believe in him and to support his many visions. They were all great ideas and some were better than others but I couldn't hesitate when it came to his creativity and hustle. This guy was always up to something! He did so much in his 20's and he was never scared to make drastic moves. I started expressing to him my love for helping women feel beautiful. I loved inspiring women to love they are. I told him about my blog and how I really enjoyed what I was doing as a hobby.
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"Baby girl, make that shit happen, just be great! -Markel Mazelin"
Markel is one of the biggest reasons why MrsCiaraRae is still alive and running to this day. He always expressed to me how important it is to keep MrsCiaraRae alive. One thing that I that attracted me to Markel's friendship was his honesty and a lot of times he was so raw and I didn't know how to receive it. He wasn't one to really sugar coat anything but at the time I really needed someone to push me. When I tell you he was God sent, bruh, I can't make this up!
Have you noticed that I wear these specs yet? Follow me on social media, I'm wearing them everywhere. I expressed why I wear them and why they mean so much to me on my snapchat. Markel had a very clean and impressive style. He was crisp, always polished and wore these glasses often. So often that they became a part of his identity. The glasses that I wear remind he of him and not to mention, Markel worked at Urban Outfitters before he died. My glasses are from Urban Outfitters.
I remember one day talking to Markel, remember how we first met? It was somewhat in a flirtatious manner. #WCW, hey beautiful, you looking good today. Those were flirtatious vibes. One day I took it a little too far and I almost lost him! I remember leaving work and calling him. When he picked up we talked for about a good thirty minutes about the situation and after that initial thirty minutes, I cried my eyes out. The thought of losing Markel was scary and I couldn't imagine my life without him. I didn't want to sacrifice our friendship over a silly and stupid mistake. "Markie, I can't imagine not having you in my life." "I don't know what I would do without you." On October 17th, the day after my birthday, Markel passed away in his sleep from a seizure. There's no words that describe how painful that was to read online. My male best friend that I've always wanted and prayed for died!
This is why you can't take anyone for granted in this thing we call life. Prior to October 17th, 2016 he texted he a few days before my birthday randomly telling me to have a good day and that he loved me. October 15th, 2016 I texted him in from Miami telling him that I made it there safely for my birthday and that I loved him. October 17th, 2016 I had this feeling in my gut to text Markel and tell him that I loved him. He didn't respond and at the time I didn't think anything of it.
Markel was God sent and these are just a few things that Markel taught me:
1. Be patient.
2. Work harder and work smarter.
3. Just start moving!
4. I am worth it.
5. Follow your heart.
6. Keep re-inventing yourself!
7. Don't apologize for being who you are.
And countless other knacks that I'll keep in my heart forever. I would do anything to have Markel back in my life. However, I can't question God. He was ready to have one of his greatest creations along side of him again.
